Caitanya Mahaprabhu used to read Gita-Govinda, Candidasa, amongst with His confidential devotees. The Gita-Govinda, the loving affairs of Radha and Krsna, it is not for the neophyte student. Therefore Caitanya Mahaprabhu... You'll find Caitanya Mahaprabhu teaching... Generally, He was talking with Sarvabhauma Bhattacarya, He was talking with Prakasananda Sarasvati, He was talking with Ramananda Raya -- but the subject matter was not the same. When He was talking officially with the Prakasananda Sarasvati, Sarvabhauma Bhattacarya, there is no talk about Krsna's pastimes with Radharani. Simply on the basis of Vedanta He was talking. But when He was talking with Ramananda Raya, He talked about Krsna's pastimes with Radharani. So we should be very careful that from the very beginning... Just like the professional Bhagavata readers. The Bhagavata reading means describing rasa-lila. Whenever you find there is Bhagavata reading, they are describing. I have seen one big Gosvami. He was professional Bhagavata reader, and whenever... He would speak very nicely on rasa-lila, and after describing rasa-lila, Bhagavata reading, he would come for recreation and smoke cigarette. I have seen it.
So this kind of Bhagavata reading will not help you. Bhaktih paresanubhavo viraktir anyatra syat: (SB 11.2.42) "If you are actually advancing in devotional service, then the symptom will be that you'll have no more material hankerings." That is real. So if you actually hear about Krsna's pastimes with Radharani, then hrd-roga-kaman apahinoti, then our heart disease, lusty desires, will vanish. That is the result. I have repeatedly said. So if you become more lusty by seeing the pastimes of Krsna with Radharani or hearing, that means you are not fit. Stop it. Stop it. Don't be foolish. So in the spiritual platform, the everything are there, but they are different in quality. Just like iron is also metal and gold is also metal, but the quality is different; similarly, don't take that Krsna's loving affairs with Radharani is exactly like our loving affair with our girlfriend. No. It is not like that. One is gold, and one is iron. Don't minimize the value. Therefore Krsnadasa Kaviraja Gosvami has described that it is ahladini-saktih. Radha-krsna-pranaya-vikrtir hladini-saktih.
So this hladini-sakti is being described in Caitanya-caritamrta. Therefore Caitanya-caritamrta is the postgraduate study of highly elevated devotees. Ordinary devotees, they cannot understand. I have seen one professional reader. He was reading Caitanya-caritamrta, but he did not believe in it. Because he cannot understand. He cannot understand it. He plainly said, "These are only imaginary descriptions. There is no fact in it." I have seen it. So how one can understand this is fact unless one has understood what is spirit? Just like in your country, big, big professors, they do not believe in the spirit. They simply think of this body. So how they can understand about Radha and Krsna and Their pastimes, all spiritual affairs? First of all we must understand what is spirit and what is Krsna and what is Radharani, and then we try to understand what is Krsna and Radharani's loving affairs.